Friday, April 19, 2013

Love Maths aur Dhokha

Love Maths aur Dhokha:
It’s only later in college that we realize what true love means; or so we like to believe. Relationships, romantic interests and crushes from our time in school seem petty and immature. It’s a different thing though that as soon as college gets over, a couple of girls get married and the definition of “love” changes yet again for their college boyfriends. But no matter how many times we break up and form new relationships, we always remember the old ones. All our serious crushes from school, the girlfriends, the almost girlfriends, the person with whom we shared our first kiss… All of them stay neatly listed in a note somewhere in our neo-cortexes.

But don’t you think it’s unfair that none of us have listed any of our subjects from middle school in our list of almost romantic involvements? Don’t get me wrong here. I’m not suggesting that I “loved” those subjects. I’m just saying that they had a lot to offer me in terms of relationship experience.


English teachers were always the classiest in school, and you could tell that they would not be cooking aaloo-gobhi for their kids back home. I could only picture them making pasta in white sauce, or cutting off the ugly edges from pristine white slices of bread. Such was the subject’s charm.

I loved spending time with my friend English. I could just keep staring at her beautiful weightless body lying open on my bed on a Sunday afternoon. She would always let my parents believe that I was studying. It’s hard to find friends who you can trust enough to watch your back like that. I also loved how easy going and free she was. She would never make me feel guilty about staring at my phone’s screen while I was with her. If someone asked me about my favorite subject, the answer was always “English”.

Going by the amount of time I had to give her to prepare for an English exam, I knew that we had a natural connection. Spending time with her was so effortless, so magical, that I knew we would last if we got together.

I thought we were meant for each other, but when I dared to look at my exam results, I knew that destiny had other plans. I should’ve understood that I was giving myself false hope right on the day when I asked my English teacher, “Can I go to the toilet?” and she replied with, “Yes, you ‘can’, but you ‘may’ not.”

Later in life, I realized that even “Can I go to the toilet?” is acceptable in modern English, but I can’t go back and change my past. I still wish if I could make her my lady, but I have to accept the fact that no matter how much of a connection we shared, she was always out of my league.

I wish I could ask her why she didn’t feel for me the way I felt for her, but it’ll be too much for my heart to hear the words, “but I always thought we were very good friends.” She taught me what it felt like to be friend-zoned. I’m just happy that no one has been able to “score” with her till date.


For a guy and a girl to get along really well as a couple, they have to be best friends first. Science was very different from English. What set her apart from the latter was her adventurous and edgy attitude towards life.

She was undoubtedly one of the most fun girls I knew. I remember when she told me all about making babies. The whole class was in splits, and the teacher just stood there, embarrassed. Some people found it weird that she kept insects preserved in jars at the biology lab, but that was just her thing.

I still remember how she once showed us magic by turning a yellow strip of paper blue. The science teacher tried to convince us that it was litmus paper and saliva is alkaline in nature yada yada, but I think she was just jealous of all the attention that Science got from the boys in our class.

She also helped me burn one of my friend’s arms once when I held a magnifying glass while sitting on the window seat in class. Oh, man. She was amazing!

We just grew apart when I suggested taking our bond to another level and all she cared about was if the bonds under her microscope were covalent or ionic. It really hurt at first. I remember crying the night before my science exam in the tenth grade, filling my notebook with all I could remember about her and still not being able to make her feel satisfied that I knew her well enough.

I miss her at times, yes I do. But I will never get back with her because I know that at the end of it all, my tears were merely a solution of H2O and NaCl to her.

Social Studies

She was one of those average girls in class. She wasn’t really attractive or anything, but wasn’t very ugly either. I mean, I couldn’t picture myself spending my life with her, but I was sure she’d find someone of her type someday.

SST and I shared a very formal relationship. We weren’t dating or anything. Her idea of a “date” was very different from mine. Also, she was always interested more in a person’s history than focusing on how she could build a future with him. We were on different planes altogether.

She came dressed in Indian wear at times and called it her “history” look. The days that she wore western formals, we called her “Civics”. She would wear jeans and t-shirts on other days, earning the name “Geography”. I think the last name was given to her because some of the boys said that her body map could be easily marked around her tight fitting jeans. But I, honestly, never looked at her like that.

We were aware of our differences and yet respected each other for our individuality.


We’ve all known that one girl who has loved us and wanted to be with us from the bottom of her heart. Yeah, she’s wanted all that, but we’ve wanted none of that. Hindi was such a woman for me in school.

First of all, I want to clarify that I know it’s very mean of one to call another person ugly. It’s not something one can control. And I’m not saying that I’m very good looking either. But, theek hai yaar, mother tongue and all, but I’m not interested in her. I can’t force it now, can I?

Hindi was always one such chape woman with two oily braids on either side of her head. It wasn’t surprising to me that I could easily picture my Hindi teacher cook aaloo gobhi, tinde and lauki for her kids back home. I was sure that her idea of making pasta was putting a pyaaz tamatar ka tadka to boiled macaroni. So, I hope you get what I mean.

I remember the day she went all saas-bahu on me saying things like “Poora din toh Hindi mein baat karte ho. Mere saath rehne mein sharam aati hai?” I had to consciously try to get into the habit of talking in English just to show that I was genuinely not interested. Matlab, do baatein kya kar li, haath dho ke peechhe padh gaye bande ke!

I finally blamed the school syllabus when she asked me why I wasn’t spending time with her in the eleventh grade. You may think it was really mean of me to not tell her the truth, but I’m sorry to say, I have no reason to feel guilty.


Now, this woman gave me a very hard time! Extremely calculative, I hated how complicated she was. Also, it just made me sick how she kept asking me to “prove” my love for her.

She would never believe anything that I would tell her, no matter how anyone with two eyes and simple common sense could decipher all that I had to say. For example, asking for silly things like proof for why a specific triangle is equilateral. I mean, when it’s obvious just by looking at it, why ask me to prove it using some weird logic and then proving my point wrong. It was so manipulative of her to do that.

I hated how she just assumed things, and every discussion always started and ended with her “x”.

Also, she had this annoying habit of taking offence whenever I called her “Maths”. She wanted to be called “Math”. It’s really difficult to be with a person who has so many issues with one’s own identity. I wish her parents would’ve named her Diksha. Then I’d have called her “Dick” all day.

It was my only relationship where I had to take professional help and seriously considered taking counseling to make it work. I won’t deny that the coaching really helped and despite all the failures, the final results were good. That is when we decided to part ways on a good note.

Like they say, sometimes it’s best for both people to take their own course in life.

As you can see, I’ve been through a lot in my life. So before you talk about how experienced you are in love, remember that “jis pyaar ke school mein padh rahe ho na tum, ussi school ke subjects ke aashiq reh chuke hain hum!

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  1. Hahaha! This was amazing. :D
    I had similar experiences with these subjects. Always had a love-hate relationship with Math(s).
    I really loved SST though. We were meant to be, I thought. But my school made Pol Sci and History compulsory and made us choose between Eco and Psych, both of which I wanted to take up! Abh itne saare complications ke saath, how could we possibly plan a future together?
    I thought you would mention French though! Sexiest subject EVAH.


    1. Our school didn't give us the option to study French till the time I passed tenth grade. I studied Sanskrit in the 9th and 10th but thought of talking about Hindi instead. Sanskrit is a teeny bit more annoying.

      Also, I'm sure French is fun. All the memes start with *Le Derp. I want to learn too :D

  2. @@@@ Amazing. funny. hilarious. totally agree with your view on maths. This woman has given a tough time to me too :p

  3. Dikh raha hai ladkiyan nahi thi school mein. :P
    Just kidding.
    Enjoyed reading it. Amazing "woman"ification of subjects. :)

  4. Sarthak!!! ...HILLARIOUS.....couldnt imagine my subjects like that....english and Hindi had the best descriptions man!!!.... :P :P
    and Math(s)...awesome!!!... like i always say...its a pleasure to read your blogs!!! :)

    1. SunSunny! :D
      Thank you. Mera bhi personal favorite is Hindi. I actually laughed like a narcissistic pig when I read it.
      Matlab dekho, khud hi likh ke khud hi hass dena. Shows the sincerity with which the joke was made.

  5. I must accept that the post is extremely funny and creative. Loved the Hindi part the most. Going all saas-bahu! Haha!

    And I am trying very hard to look beyond the fact that you compared women to subjects, you know... ugly, pretty, calculative etc.

    Funny nonetheless. :)

    1. Thank you. If a true feminist finds it funny, I think I've done a mature job of it :D

    2. I find it funny because if I had written something like this, I'd compare the subjects to a guy. So, yeah, I get your point! :)

  6. Amazing post sarthak !!!
    Of all of d 1 s i v read so far ds is simply d best....
    I just loved dse english teachr comparisons...white sauce pasta nd al....dude u nailed it..i v alwys found my english teachrs to be amazing creatures.. nd i alwys wondered wht dy ate...thesaurus???...
    But d awesmest(dnt knw;if it is realy a word,english ws a gud fren not best) was about maths.....nd d equilateral traingle!!!! Epic...i v alwys wondered y did v hve dse nonsense questions..proove whts do obvious..!! Prove d rectangle is not a square.....
    Grtt 1..njyed it thoroughly.....


    P.s. none 4 ur tolernce..d post is too gud!!

    1. Thank you. I didn't quite get what you're implying by "tolerance" here :S

  7. Hayee rabba !! Rewinddd...fb msgs !!!

  8. Very well written :)

    1. Thank you, Suhaaan with a triple-A. I see that you have a beautiful blog :)

  9. What do you think about woman teach and his student ??

    1. I think it is great that woman teach and his student.


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